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always there, never the favorite

Published by spellzea

Have you experienced being always there but also the least favorite in a group? I often experience it. The feeling of being unwanted, unloved, and not the favorite person makes me feel distant and alone. Even though I am always there for them, they seem to don’t care. Sometimes I think I’m just sensitive and emotional.  But why do I have to feel those specific emotions? Why do I have to be in a group that doesn’t like to be with me? Either way, it’s just a feeling and thought that kept running through my head for a couple of days, then stopped, then ran again, and the cycle repeated. I know it’s really hard to communicate online, especially as an empathetic observer. How can I observe in chat? Hard to tell, and the interpretation will depend on how it is read and understood by a reader like me. So, as much as possible, I’m trying to slow down and understand those who thought from different angles. But reading different books or listening to advice …

happy uxr-niversary 2026 🥳

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Happy UXR Anniversary! Today is an important day for me. I will never forget this day and cherish it for the rest of my life! My UXR 3rd anniversary! I started transitioning my career during the pandemic while managing my family business. I researched careers I could pursue while at home and upskilled by enrolling in online courses, joining a community, and participating in design challenges.  My dream is to work in tech. Work from home with my PC/laptop. Managing my time and ensuring that I can still do all my household chores to help my parents. Yes! I’m still living with my parents since they are not getting any younger, and I don’t want to be with them and ensure they are safe and sound. I’m so happy because it’s so fun and exciting that I was once working in a laboratory where I had to be physically present, wear sterile decontaminated suits, gloves, and a hairnet, and use disinfectant wherever I went.  Before I shift my career At first, I was okay with …

new job, exciting stories.

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Job searching Attending job interviews and selling myself to recruiters with very high standards is not easy. The demand is low, but the supply is so high that in one job post, there are hundreds of applicants, which really affects me because I have little chance of landing a job. Most applicants are experienced and come from prestigious universities. It’s really overwhelming, and maybe I will survive by luck? I don’t discourage myself, but I have already attended multiple initial interviews, and the only email I received is that they will not be moving forward with my application. The job market is really tough. I keep applying to the companies I like and to the positions I think I fit, and who would have thought I could really make it? I landed a job in a fintech company! (Girl, FINTECH!) I’ve always wanted to work at a fintech company because I’m really curious about how fast-paced it is and what its processes look like. I came from an agency, then a F&B product company, and …