All posts tagged: Relationship

marrieage

no, i’m not likely getting married by 30.

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I just turned 31. I have not yet married. I still live with my parents. And I am tired of pretending any of that is a problem that needs solving. Let’s talk about not being married in the thirties. I was in the living room, working on my laptop, with deadlines looming, eating sunflower seeds on the side, the way you do when you need something to do with your hands mid-task, when my relatives finally arrived for a small gathering. I heard the knock, pushed my laptop aside, and went to the door to welcome them. My parents scrambled to prepare food the way Filipino parents always do, as if hosting were a reflex they were born with. We did the whole greeting ritual, such as Beso-beso, or typically cheek-to-cheek, one side then the other. And then, mano po, it was when I reached for my uncle’s hand and pressed it gently to my forehead, the way we were taught to do since we were small. Respect. Warmth. Family. Yes, I still live with …

healing and forgiveness for happiness

healing and forgiveness for happiness

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Healing and forgiveness crossed my mind I am listening to a podcast while I make my coffee, and with every sip, something catches my attention and makes me more interested in the topic of healing and forgiveness. I usually do a lot of stuff while listening to a podcast, and now that I’ve heard Joyce Pring and Angeli Dub’s conversations about healing and forgiveness, I’m so invested that I really want to hear their thoughts on it. They also mentioned that you can definitely be happy by releasing all the negativity, such as anger, from your heart. Building good relationships with the people who really care for you is also a stepping stone to a happy life. The episode “Why Transformations Are So Painful?“ with Joyce Pring from the Life in Progress podcast is a mind-changer for me. Someone who has so much anger in my heart and blames my parents for having a chaotic life. “And at the end of the day, no matter how successful you are, how much money you make, when you die, it’s …

twisted truth.

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Sometimes, the most dangerous lies aren’t completely made up, they’re built from pieces of truth. When reality is twisted just enough, it becomes easier to manipulate people into believing something that feels real but isn’t. Stripped of context and carefully reshaped, the truth can quietly turn into a tool for deception.

always there, never the favorite

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Have you experienced being always there but also the least favorite in a group? I often experience it. The feeling of being unwanted, unloved, and not the favorite person makes me feel distant and alone. Even though I am always there for them, they seem to don’t care. Sometimes I think I’m just sensitive and emotional.  But why do I have to feel those specific emotions? Why do I have to be in a group that doesn’t like to be with me? Either way, it’s just a feeling and thought that kept running through my head for a couple of days, then stopped, then ran again, and the cycle repeated. I know it’s really hard to communicate online, especially as an empathetic observer. How can I observe in chat? Hard to tell, and the interpretation will depend on how it is read and understood by a reader like me. So, as much as possible, I’m trying to slow down and understand those who thought from different angles. But reading different books or listening to advice …