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another year of exciting journey

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Another year, another chaper

Wow, time flies! My family and I just welcomed another year, and now the first quarter is almost over. Three months have passed, while I wonder how I will change my hobbies and system to change my life, but it’s so fast, like a blink — wild, right?

This made me realize how important it is to enjoy every moment. I only know the surface level of life, not every wave that comes with it.

Right now, I’m exactly where I was in my youngest years. Eating junk foods, going to the mall, window shopping, buying stuff I don’t need, eating unhealthy foods, and not paying attention to life is my current everyday flow.

So I realized I need to spend time loving and taking care of myself and my loved ones, doing what makes me happy, and pursuing the hobbies and career I enjoy.

Like starting that business I always dreamed of, but hey, I need MONEY for that. But dear, there’s no such thing as perfect timing. It’s now or never: take action rather than plan. If I keep waiting for the “right moment,” I might miss many opportunities because I don’t feel ready.

Lately, I’ve been wanting to document everything.

(I always say it to myself, but I’m not consistent!) I’ve never been good at keeping planners—I’d always start strong, then leave pages blank. But this time, I want to make it a habit. Little by little, no pressure, enjoy. Even though I have this blog to reflect on, I also want to organize my thoughts and track where life (and God) is leading me.

I don’t want to stress too much about the future. Overthinking drains my energy and steals time I could use to celebrate life and make memories. And honestly? I’m tired of that.

So here’s to living in the moment, taking chances, and making every second count.

Sharing a glimpse of my three-month planner view! It may not be as perfect as those who swear by their planners, but I think it’s not bad. I’m using Hobonichi Weeks 2025 for another year of productivity.

another year, another journey

What I appreciate the most is seeing how my life has shifted—moving from happiness to struggles, feeling lost, then finding the strength to get back on track and start fresh from exploring new possibilities and manifesting what I want, to finally achieving a significant goal: landing a new job.

Looking back at these moments is genuinely heartwarming. It reminds me how far I’ve come, and I’m so proud of myself for not giving up.

But my story doesn’t end here. Landing this new job is just the beginning of a new chapter filled with fresh challenges and valuable lessons. I believe God wouldn’t place me here if I couldn’t overcome what’s ahead. So, I’m embracing this journey with faith, knowing that every challenge is an opportunity to grow.

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new job, exciting stories.

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Job searching

Attending job interviews and selling myself to recruiters with very high standards is not easy. The demand is low, but the supply is so high that in one job post, there are hundreds of applicants, which really affects me because I have little chance of landing a job. Most applicants are experienced and come from prestigious universities. It’s really overwhelming, and maybe I will survive by luck?

I don’t discourage myself, but I have already attended multiple initial interviews, and the only email I received is that they will not be moving forward with my application. The job market is really tough.

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I keep applying to the companies I like and to the positions I think I fit, and who would have thought I could really make it? I landed a job in a fintech company! (Girl, FINTECH!) I’ve always wanted to work at a fintech company because I’m really curious about how fast-paced it is and what its processes look like. I came from an agency, then a F&B product company, and now fintech! This is really new to me, and it’s my dream to work at a fintech company. I’m so excited to work here and stay until retirement (because I am loyal as long as the company won’t lay me off)!

I’m so nervous about attending a series of interviews, but I made it! Thank you, God, for guiding me and choosing me for this opportunity! This really calls for a celebration because no more unemployed moments for me.

FIRST DAY!

And now, it was my first day at my new job! I’m so exhausted and haggard from the long trip I took. Leaving the house at 5 AM and arriving at the office building at 8 AM is so tiring. What a long drive! I also wonder if I can really stay long in this new job since it requires at least one office day per week. My usual travel time is around 3-4 hours one way, so technically 8 hours to get to and from the office; it depends on traffic, of course. I have a low tolerance for long drives because I often get too sleepy, dizzy, and uneasy, and I hope I won’t encounter holdups/bad people while I’m sleeping on the bus.

I was excited and nervous as I sipped a hot matcha latte and bit into a toasted bagel I bought from Starbucks at Walmart before entering the building. It was a hot, sunny day, and the wind was hardly refreshing. I am wearing my blue long-sleeved polo shirt and black slacks with my backpack. (Yes! Backpack! Because I travel for hours, I need my stuff in one bag for easy carrying. 😜)

Sometimes my sensitivity to smells affects my mood on a given day, lol, especially when I smell something off or weird while traveling, so a face mask is my go-to in these situations.

When I entered the building, it was an old public mall, dark and smelly. The stores are closed since they usually open at 9 AM, and the escalator is turned off, so my only way is to use the elevator or stairs. The main office of my new job is located on the second floor. It’s like a common workplace that the company is renting. The recruiter told me that the company’s main building is still under construction, so in the meantime, we will work in the space the company rents.

The people here in the office are wearing their uniform. It’s a yellow polo shirt with the company logo. I was asked to sit down in the lobby and wait for the orientation to start. While I was attending orientation, I met a new hire named Chel. She is hired as a Marketing Admin. We both attended the orientation and chatted about our expectations. However, we are from different departments so that we wouldn’t meet often in our daily work.

While I’m attending orientation on my personal laptop, two women are looking at me. Maybe they know me or are involved with me? I’m not sure, so I asked them (just being friendly, haha, because they keep looking at me!). The admin is the other woman, and she is waiting for me but is shy to ask. With her is the designer that I will be working with, since we will be on the same team. I am happy to meet them; they are so friendly, and I feel so comfortable right after talking to them.

After that, the tech support gave me my laptop, set it up to meet all the company requirements, and created a work email and work profile for me, which is very exciting because it’s a MacBook! I am not used to using a Windows laptop, and my current laptop is an old 2017 MacBook Air that needs CPR every time I use it. I am thankful that they gave their employees a work laptop to use.

I met many new people, stepped into a new environment, and experienced a different work culture. It was a significant change, but I looked forward to learning and growing in this new chapter.

I still can’t believe that I have a new job. This is truly a blessing from God. I am nothing without Him, and that’s why I am so grateful. I will do my best to grow, learn, contribute, and enjoy this new journey.

Another challenging part now is mastering the Microsoft Workspace and other tools. But with the power of the internet and YouTube University, everything is now at our fingertips. I will upskill and study to work efficiently and productively in my new company.

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turning setbacks into new beginnings

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Setbacks can lead to powerful new beginnings. Discover how a job loss turned into a new opportunity and a journey of growth and resilience.

The start of the year didn’t go as I had hoped. Life has a way of reminding us that change is the only constant, and this became real for me when I faced an unexpected challenge—I got laid off. It was a difficult moment, one filled with uncertainty, but I held on to the belief that every obstacle has a purpose, even if it’s not immediately clear.

Embracing Change and Uncertainty

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While January brought discouraging news, I refused to let it define the rest of my year. Instead, I chose to see the setback as a redirection. Sometimes, what feels like a step backward is actually a push toward something better—an opportunity to grow, reset, and refocus.

A New Opportunity Emerges

Just before February came to an end, things took a turn for the better. I received incredible news—a new job offer. In that moment, everything I had been holding onto—hope, patience, and resilience—finally made sense.

Lessons From the Journey

This experience reminded me that setbacks are not the end of the story. They are often the beginning of something new. Challenges may shake us, but they also create space for growth, clarity, and unexpected opportunities.

If you’re going through a difficult season, keep going. Trust that your path is unfolding as it should—and that your next beginning may be just around the corner.

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happy 2025, my self-improvement year ✨

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Every New Year, I love starting fresh by setting goals, creating systems, and choosing a theme to guide me. For 2025, I’ve decided to call it my “Self-Improvement Year.”

This isn’t about perfection-it’s about progress. I want to focus on improving every part of myself, step by step. Whether it’s my health, habits, or mindset, this year is about becoming a better version of myself. Having “Self-improvement” as my theme this year will really help me find my purpose.

Of course, everything depends on how consistent I can be. It won’t always be easy, but I’m ready to try, learn, and grow. Here’s to 2025-a year of transformation and growth.

The Journey Back to Balance

There was a time when I felt more in tune with my body, not too slim or heavy, just a version of myself that felt right. Lately, though, I’ve been longing to return to that balance. It’s not just about appearance; it’s about feeling good in my skin again. I know I badly needed to focus more on my self-improvement, including a healthy lifestyle, but I am still confused about how I will do that.

Body shaming has been a constant sting, coming from places I didn’t expect and sometimes from strangers. It’s exhausting. I’ve carried those words with me, but now I want to let them go and focus on change, not for them, but for me.

The challenge? I have PCOS, which makes losing weight an even more challenging climb. It sometimes feels like a battle with my body, but I’m not giving up. Slowly, steadily, I’m committing to a healthier version of myself-one step, one day at a time.

This isn’t just about a number on the scale. It’s about reclaiming the confidence and joy of feeling strong and healthy-no shortcuts, no rushing-just patience and persistence. And one day, I’ll get there.

The Journey to a Better System

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I’ve watched countless vloggers and content creators preach about setting proper goals and following SMART plans. Their enthusiasm is contagious, but here’s the truth: none of it has ever worked for me. Maybe it’s on a case-by-case basis?

So, I’m shifting my focus. Instead of obsessing over goals, I’m choosing to build a system-a way of living that centers on consistent actions, no matter how small. It’s not about the outcome but the habits I form. And I think this will be a big help on my self-improvement journey.

It’s about showing up every day, even when I don’t feel like it. It’s about staying disciplined and committed, whether inspired or stuck in a rut. Motivation comes and goes, but a system? That’s the foundation I can rely on, no matter the mood, environment, or circumstances.

This journey isn’t glamorous, but I believe it’s the kind of quiet, steady effort that leads to real growth: no shortcuts, no pressure-just progress, one step at a time.

The Journey Through a Constantly Changing World

Life sometimes feels like a busy highway-one where I’ve been running non-stop, chasing something I couldn’t define. From graduation until now, I’ve been consumed by worry, stress, and the weight of overthinking my future. It’s like I was sprinting, hoping to reach a destination I wasn’t even sure existed.

But recently, I realized I have to keep running. It’s okay to pause, take a break, and breathe. I can sit down, relax, and think about my next steps with a clear mind. Life isn’t a race; it’s a journey that unfolds at its own pace.

We’re all unique, with talents and skills that shape our growth and self-discovery. And while change can feel overwhelming, I’ve come to understand it’s a natural part of life. Instead of fearing it, I must embrace it, adapt to it, and trust the process.

If something is meant for me, it will come. I don’t need to chase it relentlessly; I need to stay open and prepared for what’s next. After all, everything happens for a reason, and this journey is as much about the pauses as it is about the progress.

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